And, even though my grandmothers have been gone for a long time, it brought up such a wave of loneliness and grief that it quite took my breath away. I know the holiday season is hard for a lot of people, and I just wanted to say - I'm praying for you. I'm praying for you to find joy, and to feel peace, even as you grieve your loss.
If I lived near my family, I'd probably try to get my sister and mom together to talk about my grandmas. Unfortunately, I don't live near them, so I cope as best I can, mostly with Diet Coke and chocolate. I do try to remind myself that when someone we love dies, they leave a hole in our hearts the size of the love they took with them. My grandmas left big holes. I try to remember the things I loved about them, things that made them the beautiful women they were, rather than focusing on how sad I feel.
So, that is my encouragement for you. I know how hard the holidays can be. I do. If you're missing someone, try to remember happy things about them. Talk with someone else who's missing them too, if you can. Maybe write things down as they come to you. I know my children love to hear about my grandmas, and I love to tell them stories about them.
Merry, merry Christmas to you. Know that the Comforter, the Holy Spirit, is with you, and that I'm praying for you.